Happiness & Faith

my friend was telling me about this story she read... about a single mum who taught her children to keep a notebook of thanks, and daily write in it, something to give thanks for. perhaps... i am lacking in that - a spirit of thanksgiving... i dislike myself for complaining, for not giving thanks for all that i have, and for focusing on i, me and myself.

it's hard not to... that while everything in the world i know is teaching me about rising through the ranks, achieving targets through efforts and about announcing accomplishments to gain recognition... that true and joy is in genuine kindness and simple thanksgiving. For christ in me to live, and for me to die to selfish thoughts, to gain eternal peace & joy.

I think this is why the Bible says it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God. A person who has too much possessions also has too many fears and inhibitions, when we have too much, perhaps what we lose - is true freedom. Too much knowledge of the things of the world, and it is almost impossible to come before Him with child-like faith. When I became a teenager gaining more knowledge and pride, the wisdom of my father is sometimes viewed as folly and old-fashioned ignorance... but as I come into adulthood, I realise the worth and reality of that wisdom.

Perhaps my faith seems foolish to some, but the alternative to believe in a life void of God's love and guidance seems too fearful a thought to behold. For if I stop believing in the Giver of Life, what meaning is there to Life anymore? It's like trying to operate an appliance without a instruction manual, and forgetting what purpose I purchased it for - the loss of meaning, is too terrifying... and through my experience in Him, I'd rather trust Him and pray... that He will help me keep the foundation of my faith, through my emotional and physical senses, real and tangible...